100,000 hits! Who would’ve ever thought when I started this
blog back in 2011? Compared to many popular blogs that number is not really
anything to brag about. However, it still seems to be a milestone worth
celebrating. Hoorah! Over the past almost seven years I have had my good days
along with a lot of bad. I suffer from PTSD and my depression makes it hard for
me to write. You can probably tell how I’m doing by the frequency of my posts.
That being said, it is obvious that my depression has taken its toll over the
past year or so. Depression is no fun. As a matter of fact, that is one of the
symptoms, lack of fun. Being unable to enjoy what other people enjoy. The
medical term is anhedonia. In short, it is the inability to feel pleasure. It can
literally take the fun out of life. The meds I take keep me on a fairly even
keel, no big mood swings one way or the other.
Those of you who have followed my blog know that I wrote a
book (Uncle Sam Ain’t Released Me Yet – Memoirs of a REMF by Robert B.
Martin, IV; available on Amazon) about the time I spent in the U.S. Army during the Vietnam War. I posted
it serially on this blog. If I can struggle through the depression I intend to
write a book about growing up in a small Southwest Georgia town. I think I will
call it, “Stories I Can Tell Now that Mama is Gone.” She has been gone for some
time now, but I actually began making notes for it before she died and I still like
the title. It is hard to concentrate for long periods of time (another symptom
of depression), which makes it hard to get much written at any one time. I will just
have to push hard and see if I can get it done. I will probably post a few of
the stories on this blog if I do get any serious writing done. All I can say
is, stay tuned.
